(semi)Hiatus

really need to study. really busy. but i'll still be posting my graphics here:
glamorous_mess

might pop up now and again. or might not. you can take my off your f-list if you want.
:)

First week of school. Hmm. Nothing to say. It's just same old, same old. I am still short. I still have black hair. I still wear glasses. I still wear the same school uniform I've been wearing since I went to high school. I am still boring. I still have the same darn science teacher. I still hang out with the same group of friends I've been hanging out with since the middle of Yr 8. (Which is quite extraordinary because I have never been in one group for longer than a term before that) I still have practically no one I really like in all of my classes. Well except for a few. But still. (Omg, weird moment: I kinda feel like "still" is not an english word anymore. It sounds wrong. Still. Still. Still sounds wrong.)

Let's see how the second week of school goes.

[9] Alexis Bledel
[6] Ashley Greene
[28] Gossip Girl
[20] Kristen Stewart
[6] Reese Witherspoon

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Gossip Girl: Gone With The Will was sadly predictable. Jack messing Chuck up was an obvious "duh!". Blair throwing the flowers at Chuck and telling him she was through with watching him self-destruct was also predictable but a bit sad. But of course, Chuck goes back to being his Badass self.

I quite liked the adoption plot. I knew that Lily and Rufus's son was dead from reading spoilers but thank god I had no idea it was all a lie. Yeah, spoilers really ruined it for me. But I can't help it. Now I wanna know who the son is. He has gotta be good looking. Just look at Serena and Dan. Their half brother will be like a blond bombshell who is a brooding romantic and can probably make girls faint with just a look from his honey brown eyes.

The music was awesome as always. I have every song (almost) from GG in my Ipod. I esepically love The Virgins, Santogold, Bloc Party, Rooney, Phantom Planet and Greycoats. Most of which I had no idea who they were until I listened to one of their songs.

And oh my god, Taylor Lautner gets to still be Jacob in Twilight. Eh. Taylor's so not right for Jacob. I agree with the rumours: he is too baby faced.

And oh my god, Harry Potter 6 is going to come out this year. Woo hoo!

And oh my god, Kate Winslet wins two Golden Globes. Her acceptance speech was so awkward that it's funny. She forgot about Anne Hathaway when mentioning other nominees. Andhe loved Leonardo DiCaprio for 13 years? How about her husband? Just a short mention. She looked like she was having an orgasm actually.

And oh my god, I feel another obsession coming on: True Blood. I finally gave into temptation and downloaded the first two episodes. And I'm hooked. Of course I'm going to get hooked. It's a show about vampires and love between a mortal and a vampire. The perfect recipe to get the vampire fangirl in me to squeal endlessly with excitement. I think that once a guy is labelled as a "vampire", I will automatically fall in love with him. No matter how ugly he probably actually is. That's why I have not watched Interview With The Vampire, starring Tom Cruise and Brad Pitt. I downloaded it a few weeks ago. I know it's an oldie but I haven't watched it before so I thought I'd watch it. I also know I'm not ready to like Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt. Ok, Brad Pitt's alright. But Tom Cruise. Nuh-uh.

I'm still bored and sick of my life. But I'll recover with all the Gossip Girl and True Blood episodes. I always do.

Wow, I've noticed that most of my blog is about TV and movies. I am really obsessed. Or I'm really so boring that I have to rely on talking about my opinions of shows instead of my life.

Gossip Girl: Epic (And a bit cheesy)
My Life: Far from epic (And all Chucked Up)

Jack Bass totally slept with Blair. You can so tell with Blair's last comment to him: "He can't know about New Year's Eve" (Wait, was it New Year's or the eve? I forget.) Jenny's plotline totally bored me. Chair's (Chuck and Blair. Chair sounds more hilarious than Bluck.) meeting at school was so cute. Hello to you too lover. Seeing him so totally blank (and high from hash) was depressing and attractive at the same time. And of course, his teetering-over-the-edge-of-building and her I-care-so-please-don't-do-this-to-me speech was yet another epic Chair moment.

I found god, on the corner of first and Amistad. Where the west was all but won. All alone, smoking his last cigarette. I said where you been, he said ask anything. Where were you? When everything was falling apart. All my days were spent by the telephone. It never rang. And all I needed was a call. That never came. To the corner of first and Amistad

I feel a bit like the lyrics from The Fray's "You Found Me" (see above). Only I'm not thinking about suicide. I'm totally not liking my life right now. I did the unthinkable: I considered what I was going to in the future. And that has put my mental state in a turmoil. Of all time. It's my holidays and I'm supposed to be not thinking about anything. But my mum asked me the question: "What are you going to do with your life?" (like what career do you want) and I totally clammed up. I wanted to say "I want to be a doctor" but that feels so cliche and untrue. I probably could be a doctor if I want to. But I'm so unfocused and not studying hard enough and if I continue my life like this - watching TV all day, doing the computer when I'm bored, playing Wii, maybe cram in a bit of work but give up when I get stuck with one question - I'm not going anywhere. I know I've been slacking academic wise but I don't know how to improve. I don't know what to study. I don't how to solve problems. I don't how to get smarter. I have the bad habit giving up on work entirely when I don't know how to do one question. I also love procrastinating.

Then I kind of thought: I don't just want "Doctor" to be my only option. What if I don't get into medical school? Then what? Not trying to be boastful or anything but all my life I've been quite good when it comes to the academic side of things. But I just wondered what if I am no longer good that way. I don't have any other talents. I can't sing, act, dance, draw, run, swim. So there goes singer, actor, dancer, artist, runner, swimmer. Gosh. I have 3 more years to go before the all important exam which determines what kind of Uni I'm going to. If I'm even going.

To prepare for the 3 years, I'm now getting tuition. Woo hoo! No, seriously, I'm looking forward to it. But I'll probably get sick of it two lessons in. I'm totally ready to be the best that I can for Year 10. And if I do extremely well for my School Certificate (just an exam at the end of Year 10), I can easily get accepted to one of the good schools in Sydney. But regardless of how I do in my exams, I'm still transferring. I hate the school that I'm in. I don't even care about how I'm going to survive in a totally new school environment. Any school is better than my current school.

Oh and also, I'm applying for a job at McDonald's and KFC. Well, I haven't, but I'm thinking of it. Yay! That I'm also looking forward to. Think of all the McChicken Burgers or Kentucky's Fried Chickens I get to be near!

Another thing that's been spoiling my mood for the holidays. My friends. I haven't seen them for quite a while but they still have the power to wreck my emotional being (via sms, phone and msn). They are frustrating me now. I can't understand them. And I don't think I want to anymore. I'm tired of the whole concept of friendship. I feel like my title: I'm (my name). No one cares.

The friends I have now aren't exactly friends that I'm willing to share my deepest and darkest secrets to. I don't know why. Maybe I've watched too much TV and movies and therefore have really high expectations of what friends should be like. I don't even know what kinds of stuff I talk to them about. All I know is that I've never said anything too personal to any of them. Maybe it's just me that's not willing to share personal secrets. But I'm tired of bottling them all up. I hope later in my life I will get both my dream career and my dream best friend.

Things I've done in the holidays:
- Obsessed over Gossip Girl through the fansites and Youtube.
- Watched Fightclub: Edward Norton is my favourite actor of all time. Hotness wise, I like him second to Ed Westwick. Coincidence that their names are almost the same?
- Bought and played Carnival Games and Super Monkey Ball: Not the best titles in the market but entertaining enough
- Rented DVDs for 1 dollar each
- Watched every episode of Eli Stone: WHY DID THEY HAVE TO CANCEL SUCH A GREAT SHOW????? And Maggie and Eli's baby look so adorable!
- Went to Jamberoo (a water theme park kind of thing)
- Went to Blue Mountains again (still same old mountains)
- Heard a rumour that the Twilight cast (namely Rob P, Kristen S and Nikki R) have been dating each other, just like the Gossip Girl cast

Twilight bores me now. The excitement has well and truly fizzled for me. I liked the movie, the second time I watched it. But that's about it. I still like Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson. They are awesome actors. There couldn't have been a better Bella and Edward.

My icon making skills have also fizzled. I don't have the inspiration anymore. And my mum wants to throw out the computer so I would have to do it on my Mac which isn't good cos the Mac makes my icons look bad. Or maybe it's just my icons look bad in the first place.

I have a new obsession now. I'm watching all "Brat Pack" movies. You know, The Breakfast Club and St Elmo's Fire. I watched them both. And I really liked them. I also watched other eighties teenage films: Pretty In Pink, Sixteen Candles (if you've seen this, the title for this post might make sense to you), Ferris Beuller's Day Off (for the third time, sad I know, but whatevs, it's funny) and Class. And I think I've fallen for Andrew McCarthy. Well, the younger version of him anyway. He was so adorable in Pretty In Pink. I think I'm going to watch it again. I crush easily. I can fall in love with at least one guy in a movie/tv show.

January 5th really needs to come now. Like, it's only the 21st of December. I have to wait for two more agonizing weeks. I'm only watching those movies to kill time but they are not enough. I needed 6 movies to finish my week. I will need 50 more until Jan 5th. I don't think I need to tell you what's happening on Jan 5th. It's Gossip Girl's return.

Gosh I'm sad. I'm a sad, sad child who has nothing better to do than watch 6 movies in a week. And 3 of those has Andrew McCarthy starring in it. I'm a sad, sad child who is sort of crushing on an old guy when he was younger. Man, I need to do something. Like swim or run. Or play Wii Fit. Do everything but be a couch potato. I'm not even a couch potato, I'm more like a chair potato cos I'm watching movies from the internet. Jeez I'm really sad.

( I might as well list a few of my favourite movies of all time )

Gossip Girl spoilers ahead don’t read if you haven’t watched it and plan on doing so. And you might have no idea what I'm on about if you haven't watched it at all.

( My favourite 2 scenes of Gossip Girl and probably of all TV shows. )

Gossip Girl never fails to cheer me up. I just watched "O Brother, Where Bart Thou?" a few days ago. And my god was it the best episode ever. But it was the worst way to end Gossip Girl. The worst way!!!! How can they do this to us (to ME)? WHY!?!?! Why such a cliffhanger? Why leave me hanging for a month? WHY!!!!!!????? I can’t wait for a freaking month. No I absolutely can’t. I need to know why Chuck went away. I need to know if Dan and Serena are getting back together. I need to know what will happen next! Gosh. Jan 5 seems so far away. But the wait will be worth it.

Ed Westwick (playing the Chuck "Badass") is officially my new crush. Seriously. He is such a great actor and he's so hot. He was so goddamn sexy with his whole emo, I-hate-everyone attitude. I mean, the look on his face when Blair said those three magic words “I love you” was just so heart-breakingly adorable. I had to pause and linger there for a few minutes. I’ve seen that scene 904598209 times. Obviously, it meant the world to him that Blair finally said those three words but he couldn’t bring himself to accept it because he felt that she deserved better. Oh the sacrifice he made! He’s such a tortured soul. He’s the bad boy being bad for the sake of being bad. And he cares for Blair! Oh, those two are just adorable. Chuck and Blair. Blair and Chuck.

I’m such a sucker for tortured souls. For instance, Edward Cullen/Robert Pattinson. Tortured souls that look so hot when they start emo-ing and being all “I’m not good enough for you” and “I want you but I shouldn’t because I’m so damaged”. But I’m not too crazy for Robert Pattinson anymore. He didn’t do Edward justice. But then again, I don’t think anyone in the world can do Edward Cullen justice. (Yeah, I’ve watched Twilight. I’m just waiting to watch it on the big screen and see if my opinion remains the same.)

Anyways, back to Gossip Girl. This show is such a guilty pleasure. Each episode gets better than the previous. I just hope that the free-to-air here will treat it nicer! I mean it airs at 10.30pm on Wed. I can't wait until then. God. I can't even wait until Jan 5, which is when I'll download it.

Here's what I'm hoping will happen in the future. Because I've seen the promo, I know that Chuck heads on to the path of self-destruction (with more booze and drugs) and will be teetering on the edge of a building and Blair will try to stop him. Being the genius that I am, I know that Chuck will not die because that would just be stupid. I just hope that Blair and Chuck will stay together for a little longer this time. Just for about 3 episodes where they are all lovey-dovey (highly doubt that that will happen, but nothing wrong with wishing). Then they can continue their games. I am also still holding out a candle on the Dan/Serena relationship. They go together so well and I don't care how boring and cheesy their plotlines might get. I want them back together! And Aaron should go die in a hole. That moustached dude annoys the hell out of me. One moment he's all "Well, Serena, I'm hard to please so that's why I am going to date 100 girls at one time. Too bad if you can't handle the heat" and the next he's all "I love you Serena, I freaking love you. Ditch Dan and elope with me." He's just doing that cos he's jealous Dan's wittiness will charm Serena away from him. Lily and Rufus shouldn't be together. These two are great characters but they bore me when they try to be together. And what's with the spinoff about them? Ugh. Jenny should stop trying so hard to be a "wannabe". Jenny should get another go at the fashion industry. Vanessa and Nate are not too bad. Nate was never interesting to me anyway. Vanessa I think should be more like the Vanessa in the books. She should shave her head and be a rebel.

Whoa, long post much?

I feel like posting a non-graphics-related blog. So here I go. And this will just be a really long rant about my school. I advise you not to read it.

I'm not looking forward to next week. Even if Twilight premieres here in Australia.(ok, I will be looking forward to it, even though it's the same day my test will be) I'm just a bit wound up about the maths test that week. Another maths test. A maths test which they inform us about two weeks beforehand when we've asked about it since like forever.
*Sigh* I'm slacking off so much. No, I've been slacking off for this whole year. I'm no longer acing tests and tests are the only thing I'm good at in school. Also, there's this stupid, meaningless thingy where you have to do a speech about what employment-related skills you've learnt at school. Like, WTF? Come the day, I'm going to freak out, mess up, forget my palm cards, forget my words, use a lot of "um"s and be humiliated like never before. Like, seriously, why on earth do we have to talk about the crap that we've so-called "learnt" at school? I'm pretty sure half of the teachers at our school don't give a shit about any of us, let alone be concerned about how we're going to present ourselves at a job interview.

( Reasons why I hate school )

I'm just so over Year 9. COME ON STUPID HOLIDAYS, HURRY YOUR ASS UP!!!!

But I am so looking forward to the week after that. It's the last week. It's the week I'm actually going to see Twilight. It's the week where hopefully I get to watch movies and play card games. The last week is what keeps me hanging on. And then maybe I get more time to improve on my graphics skills and post some more icons.

And the TV shows are going to be awesome. Gossip Girl is finally on free-to-air in Australia!!! Even if I've watched it, I'm still going to watch it. Ugly Betty gets the primetime slot again! Friends are on again. I can never get too much of Friends. Heroes, ANTM, How I Met Your Mother, Survivor, SYTYCD. Hey, I know these aren't top-notch compared to America, but this is the best Australia can get. If I really love a show, I'll watch it even if I'm the only one doing so. Yeah, I'm that dedicated.

I've gone AWOL from the web haven't I?
Well, that's because I've been studying for my Maths test. *Gasps of horror*

Can I just say that I abso-freaking-lutely cannot wait for Twilight to come out?! I just go ape-shit with every new picture or any small news about Twilight. I've also gone crazy with downloading every podcast there is that concerns Twilight. I even developed a fangirl scream. I scream every time I see the trailers and any interviews, especially of Rpattz. I don't know why there are still so many people that dislike him (namely my close friends that think that he is the ugliest man to ever walk the earth). He's the perfect Edward, he looks gentleman-ly and a bit tortured at the same time. And yeah. But I'm a bit over him now. Just a tad though. Now I really like Cam Gigandet. How cool is his last name?

Yes, I really need to get a life.

- Twilight [54]

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PS. Notice the title of this post and the name of the cut: I just watched Mamma Mia! yesterday. So-daggy-it's-cool, don't you think

( Gimme, gimme, gimme a man after midnight )

- Gossip Girl [43]



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I should really stop making more of gossip girl icons. Like seriously. I make so much of them that I'm not able to icon other stuff.

Just because I'm free I shall tell you what number to what number is iconed what stuff. If I actually made sense.
1-3: Serena, Yale
4-9: Serena and Blair on phone, Yale, Final Scene
10-18: Blair telling Serena about how Yale is so cool
19-24: Chuck and Blair make a deal, Kiss on neck
25-28: Serena seeing Dan in school
29-30: Serena at home
31-33: Vanessa talking about Nate
34: Blair being Queen Bee (I meant to do more on this but I didn't in the end)
35-37: Serena back on top
38-43: Serena, Catwalk

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( And some things never change; let a new game begin )

Don't worry about the title. If you live in Australia, you should know what I mean.

Real shitty batch. Don't bother looking at it actually.
:(

- Sienna Miller [26]

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( nothing sweet about me )

"Someone told me love will all save us.
But how can that be, look what love gave us.
A world full of killing, and blood-spilling
That world never came."

Not completely Twilight icons. A bit of Gossip Girl chucked in as well. And some of them are not my best as I have tried to test new colouring. Sorry if it takes a long time to load, but I do hope you will be patient and see all the icons. xD

- Gossip Girl: Season 2 [30]
- Twilight [24]

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( That's all superhero stuff, right? What if I'm not the hero? What if I am the bad guy? )

RULES||JOIN||SIGN-UP

OMG! OMG!!!!!!!
TWILIGHT'S NEW TRAILER!!!!!!!!!!!!
GAHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I know one day late but who cares!?!?!?!?

Yeah, I have no idea how to embed the video here (well, I do just can't be bothered). But I don't need to cause I'll just get it off Youtube and put it in my Ipod Touch. And watch it over and over and over and over again. Until my eyes drop off.
If anyone wants to know how to download mp4 formats of videos from Youtube, go to www.keepvid.com and enter the url of the video. But I'm sure you guys know how to do that already.


And I just want to say a big THANK YOU to those regular commenters of my "art", you know who you are. THANK YOU! Reading them brightens my day.

I'm going crazy over her and I don't know why. I made like a whole bunch icons of her (a whole bunch for my standards). And I'm surprisingly free right now. No actually, I'm procrastinating. Yeah. I don't feel like doing my homework. Naughty me. But I really have to do the homework. Or else I won't get to rent more dvds. Better get on it right after this post.

- Blake Livey [37]

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( i'm gonna have to take you right to church )

Yeah, I've been lazy. I've been "busy" with LIMS. Here's another icon batch if anyone cares. My icon making has been going pretty sucky. So this icon batch will definitely suck. I'm just posting this because my journal looks a bit empty.

- Rachel Bilson [24]

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( shove your hope where it don't shine )

I've just created a new LIMS community guys! It's kstewrpattzlims and it's a LIMS for Kristen Stewart and Robert Pattinson. Go sign up if you are interested. Please. LOL.
Thanks if you actually do.
xD

Gossip Girl [48]

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( xoxo Gossip Girl )

- Alexis Bledel [13]
- Blake Lively [25]
- Kristen Stewart [19]



( I've got lots of pictures in my head )

I was set on not making this a blog journal; just strictly graphics. But I can't help it. And for those who are just god-darn fed up with Twilight, don't read on.

So, yeah, I am a Twilight fan. I know I shouldn't be embarrassed about admitting that, since just about 1 in 5 people are overly obsessed about it, but I do feel that way. Ok, not embarrassed, maybe reluctant. Because I'm not like the real Twi-hard fans out there who would attend those opening party for the new book, or buy those merchandise that says "Team Edward/Jacob". No. I'm not like that. Although I should be, considering that I've read Twilight over 3 years ago and had to wait for the second book to be released, while most "fans" just waltz into the bookstore and buy the books, whist pretending to be really interested in the books not because of the hype that it's causing but because they genuinely like the book. That's what annoys me the most. It's how people think it's now cool to be a nerd and, you know, to be clutching a "Breaking Dawn" in their hands. Most just read it because everyone else is reading it. I read it because being the nerd that I am, I found the book in my library (which I visit so often that it's become as natural as breathing) and thought it was interesting and just wanted to read it.

I bought Breaking Dawn a few days ago but I'm still up to the 6th chapter. Not that I'm a slow reader or anything, but because I just want to savour it. Like I did with Harry Potter 7. But hopefully, unlike Harry Potter 7, I won't be disappointed in Breaking Dawn. I've sort of skimmed through a few livejournals and picked up a few bits and pieces of spoilers here and there but I've actually done pretty well with still being totally clueless about how the story will end. And I haven't read the last page yet!! I am a sucker for last pages. As in, after reading the blurb I would usually "accidentally" flip to the last page and read it. Sometimes it ruins the experience of reading, most of the times, it actually motivates me to finish the story. But I haven't done so with "Breaking Dawn". So good on me!

Perhaps later in the day, I might post up some icons and return to strictly being graphic-related.

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Oh and I just finally made a header image!! Woohoo! But it's a bit off. Comments are gladly appreciated:) And note to self: credits.

( omg, did I just say dazzle? )